Ode to Football with my Dad (throwback)


Oh football with my dad
Makes me smile just
Think about it, so glad
The two teams fighting
For eternal glory
Each individual team has a story
The Bears have
Made the comeback of
The century, and the
Play of the millennium
My body no longer tame
We jump up and down
We scream and dance around
Lights and more screams
Like aftershocks
Whiffing aftershave and
Hearing broken English
But I wouldn’t have it any other way
Sitting on the couch
Analyzing plays
Wondering if his bad passing is merely a phase
Hot, fresh pizza
Green, glowing jello
Glass after glass of Coca Cola
The Couch is sleep Soothing
But I’m wide awake my team’s reputation
At stake
How many more
Turnovers can I take?
I saw my first safety ever,
But something else
Takes the cake
Spending time with my dad, seeing passion
In his blue eyes
I love him more than
Life itself, my smile is proof
Ode to football with
My dad – you, dad, made me
Motivated, sharp, a good
Debater, analyzer, captivated,
Focused and determined
You gave me my voice of skepticism and passion
To go 4th and goal
Causes an interception
Run 108 yards back
Beautiful deception
Touchdown for us
Game is secured
Till next week
Ode to football with my dad
To the next game, and the hundreds after.


God and Pain: Theories


Demea’s argument that humans are miserable and believing in God somehow alleviates that misery is a simply false argument. Human pain is not alleviated because of a belief in God; it is a combination of reality and mindset, not blind reverence, which accounts for pain decrease. It is impossible that God is the sole reason that your pain diminishes. By painting these pictures of what the world appears like to Demea, he manages to explain his side. Demea begins his argument by explaining in short that the world is a miserable place. This is something even Philo agrees with him about and they go on to give a truly desolate, depressing description of the earth. “Remorse, shame, anguish, rage, disappointment, anxiety, fear, dejection, despair: who has ever passed through life without cruel in roads from these tormentors?” (Hume 61) So is the world really a horrific place where one’s only joy can stem from believing in God, because he helps to take the pain away?

Even the design theory, the theory that if something (a machine) were made that it had to have a designer, is taken into account saying that we were made a put on this earth but happiness was not part of the things we were equipped with, according to Demea. Demea and Philo go to a discussion about how even in nature one is the prey and one predator, the prey always in a state of fear, keeping in mind that entire connection between suffering and how God affects it. Another quite strong argument by Philo is “we are terrified not bribed to the continuance of our existence” (Hume 62). It is not a bribe says Philo that drives us but an internal fear. Fear is not that drives the average person, joy, love, and happiness can just as well be factors.

Philo takes it a step further and says “Man is the greatest enemy of man” (Hume 60). Basically Philo and Demea take a pessimistic look at the world giving many examples leading up to Man being man’s worst enemy is Philo’s argument against Demea. He believes man can easily kill and tame the animals and rise up against all other animals as the superior being. It is our actions toward other humans which Philo raises the biggest eye. We are each other demise. Something that holds some truth, is the plausible argument, man is man’s own enemy, feasible no? It is a strong point even if as a whole the main argument that believing in God is the only way to suffer less in this wretched world. The world is not so wretched, as the two philosophers are only too quick to claim. They neglect to mention happiness, love, pleasure, satisfaction, and humor which all also exist, making it easy to see the world is not that dismal place which they claim it to be.

After Cleanthes does not have much to say, Philo strikes with penetrating questions. He discusses God and his actions with humans. He says “…assert the moral belief attributes to the Deity, his justice benevolence, mercy, and rectitude, to be in the same nature with these virtues in human creatures…” (Hume 63) He continues by explaining how God has the choice of happiness or wisdom, but although he has control he uses his power incorrectly, when he could allow all-good. Philo even asks in the discussion “In what respect, the, do his benevolence and mercy of men?” (Hume 63) Philo is almost pleading looking for a reason why. Cleanthes speaks up and says that Philo is denying his “true intentions”. He points out, much like in this argument that “for every one vexation which we meet with, upon computation, a hundred enjoyments” (Hume 65). Cleanthes is hitting the nail on the head; Philo and Demea have neglected the positive side of life.

It is this side of life, our experience and beliefs and well as reactions to
physical pain as to where the pain comes and goes from. Our aches and pains draw from a source, which is in debate and should not be. Seeing things one sided is dangerous because you neglect the other side (in this case the happiness that exists in life). Like believing the world is flat, not being open minded can lead to a lock on our realm of human intellect. It is not if you believe in God, you world will be less wretched, but rather while believing in God you gain hope and things fall into a balance. One that does not exist with its counterpart; pain and pleasure cannot be single. Thus pain is simply extremely complicated, but its basics is that on action and reaction for a balance in the universe do we feel pain – not connected to our pious beliefs.

What is the purpose of evil? My ponderings.


The problem Leibniz discusses in the Theodicy is God being connected directly to the evil that exists on earth. He figures ways to argue against the belief – if god made humans which make evil, then god is the “source for that evil”. My belief is the prospect of evil on earth cannot be rationally connected to the existence of God. Free will is what humans have and are behind evil on earth based upon these choices. Even if God is all-knowing that simply means he knows you will choose wrong; he does not choose wrong for you. This “prospect” is an ongoing battle which is highly in the enormous problem evil presents. Since time began, man has been questioning the Lord and his role in the existence of evil. Such questions as the one Leibniz asks, like why if God is “all good” does evil exist? Why would God create evil? Because in the real world, evil is accompanied by a greater good, he answers.
An explanation one can better swallow is that which in the human mind it is a psychological reaction to assign the blame when inconceivable situations of veil arise. “God can prevent the sin of intelligent creatures; but he does not do so, and rather contributes to it by his concurrence and by the opportunities which he brings about, although he has a perfect knowledge of it.” (Leibniz pg4) God created man and bestowed upon him his own intellect and free will completely independent of the god makes people evil theory. Something Leibniz understands.
According to the argument “perfect world” in the best of all world’s, evil would not present. “Whoever makes things in which there is evil… does not choose the best.” (Leibniz pg 1) Because God interfered and permitted evil, that the “best world” cannot exist for God has done wrong. However, Leibniz points out that people eventually have a greater good from a God who made them with these imperfections. People have the ability to do good. They ignore that good, and furthermore believe to blame God for their oversight in judgment. I believe that just because evil exists, does not mean God put it there directly. God does not want people to suffer or for wars to plague our world. It is in this light that he created the world, and we as its inhabitants select for ourselves what kind of world we want. In is in our hands not God’s, whether we help or hinder the act of evil.
Another theory to disprove that God is behind evil. “Whoever produces all that is real in a thing is its cause. God produces all that is real in a thing. Hence, God is the cause of sin.” (Leibniz pg5) However logical this may sound, simple deducing skills and taking apart the argument and my backing Leibniz words, showing the prosyollogism is incorrect. “A creature in causing sin is a defective being, how errors and evil inclinations are born.” Leibniz gave a response showing evil stems not from God. That basically said humans do receive enough good to overcome evil, and saying God thus is the reason for sin. (Leibniz pg5) To reiterate, humans receive not only evil but good as well. Therefore the blame for evil rests solely in each individual, who knows right from wrong. God is not a programmed being looking to instill evil in all things. We have options and it’s when we ignore logical explanation and pin the blame, that we lose sight of who God is. God made man. God made original sin. God didn’t make people’s main function sin. The option is there. The human initiative is that other piece that Leibniz shows. A piece, I find essential.
We have seen strong evidence on the point of statements, proving to us that God inflicts the world with unspeakable evils. We also learn many plausible reasons why. If God is in charge of every wire in every human being, he must be behind the wires that pulse evil throughout the earth. Leibniz clearly has shown that people have the choice and can see issues as black or white. We are given choices, not sin. We can think critically about the consequences of our actions. God does not poke us with the cattle prod of evil. It is simple: God created man and in doing so gave man all minds with cognitive thinking. It is from the human brain, not the brain of God that evil plots in the world are developed. It is unnerving to think that God would use us like pawns and play games. Rather we are given the good to overcome evil. It is and remains a question of do I or don’t I?

Older and Frankly Bolder


In six days I will be older
And I’m frankly bolder
I’m so much stronger
My patience lasts so much longer
I don’t know if I’m wiser
But much to my surprise
People ask me for advice
But soon I will be 29
And I honestly feel fabulous
At first I worried about where I am
In my life
I have graduated and I’m planning the rest
For now
It’s really been a journey
But where has the time gone
It really has flown by
It just feels so wrong and I wonder why
But it also finally feels so very right
To me be
So I say here’s to 29
Here’s to cheers and fears and tears
Here’s to never compromising on who I am
Here’s to Life
Because we only get one



The alarming flash from the glass of the church
I leap slightly in my pew
That awful flash again
I try not to jump
I really do
The relentless rains
They are pounding in my brain
I was never scared before
So I try to ignore
But it keeps on storming even more
As I lay my head to sleep
The last thing I recall
Is the pounding of the rain
That nothing could stall

Birthday Surprise <3


I am sitting next to my twin
We are eating breakfast
And it starts to begin
Happy birthday is being played on the radio
And I know something is up
It’s my brother’s band on the CD
And my entire family is surrounding me
Out of the blue my mom steps out with a cake
And suddenly it’s more than I can take
I’m moved to tears
For all these years of us
My twin and I
After we cut the special lemon cake and all eat
I lift my twin up by her feet
I lift her, hug her, high yes I do
And I cry, I got what I wanted for my birthday – and that is you