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Sat Still
More Sound
More Shrill
Dial Number
Can’t Breathe
Evil Advancing
I Proceed
Help Me
I Say
My Legs
Not Fast
Eyes Meet
Minds Screaming
Hurry Run
Open Window
I Exit
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Hide First
There’s Five
Five Men
Five Masks
White Men
White Snow
Crawl Deep
Spiky Bush
I Shiver
They Grasp
I Shriek
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Jaw Clenches
I Bite
Now Run
My Fight
Red Snow
In Trouble
Cops Cops
Shooting Starts
Pop Pop
I Duck
And Cover
Cold Shiver
Not Asleep
Dead quiet
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I don’t know who I love anymore

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Is it you?
Is it him?
My feelings are so jumbled.
All I can do is mumble.
And my brain causes me to stumble.
And it’s absolutely true
That I don’t know if it’s you.
My father taught me to be honest
That what I always am
Because the lies hurt far worse
Then any truth can.
Because this feels like a curse.
I loved you first.
But now I love someone else.
You were my first love
From God above
You were so kind
I lost my mind
But now I don’t know what to do.
Do I love him or do I love you?
My heart is shattered
So does it even matter
Because can someone love me
With moods crashing like the sea?
But sometimes
When I put down my heavy head
And lie down in my dark cold bed
And I wonder what is all this worrying for if
I don’t know who I love anymore.

Rough Seas

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Eyes burning like a thousand suns

I hang my head low, in despair

And grasp my hands so tightly in prayer

WHERE ARE YOU, GOD?

Please, it’s getting so hard to breath

I know it will be better

But right now it’s not

Cold, burning tears

They feel cold and wet

Suddenly they burn and my face too

I want to find a way to not live this way

Eyes stinging

I type, I think, I sip coffee

There is hope at the end of this endless tunnel

I’m digging my way out of

It keeps collapsing and my progress is stopped

Eye wide open

I keep digging

Thinking about happier times

Trying not to get more sad, more upset

Trying not to get lost in my darkness

Cold, burning tears

I dig my way out

No looking back

Time will heal

For now, I must go on with my day

The sadness writhes inside

I must hope better days are soon