Maddening Intensity of Calm and Ease


I leave the car slowly and
I see you, it’s you… and I feel butterflies
I feel a sense of anticipation.
We embrace and we walk towards the restaurant
I feel each step as I walk next to you
It feels natural, like we’ve walked together before
Except we haven’t
We smile and walk up to the counter
Breathe in…
You ask, Do you know what you want?
I say Yes, I always get the same thing.
You glance the menu and we order.
Breathe out…
We wait a long time for our food.
But I feel it.
Standing there.
Glancing at you.
I feel stillness.
I feel calm.
I feel peace.
I feel traquail next to you.
I breathe nice and even breaths. I smile. I laugh.
We talk through the evening and it’s so nice.
I feel calm sipping tea and I listen to you.
I appreciate your casual attire.
It calms me.
I dressed up too much…
It feels effortless being with you.
I don’t feel maddening intensity except I do.
I feel maddening intensity of joy.
Maddening intensity of calm and ease.
Of our first meeting.

The Christmas suitcase -Magic


The spellbinding suitcase

Appropriately scarlet in color

That splash of burgundy wine add to the allure

There was magic within

Every kind of wrapping paper was a win

Streamers and ribbon by the yard

Spill out of every corner as soon as you begin to unzip it

Being an aesthetically pleasing gift was not hard

The glitter and the satin nametags

Rolls of green and crimson and gold

Were something to behold

When I opened the zipper and peered inside

I was happy to abide by my mom’s wishes to find

The most beautiful paper

Which was a dilemma; they were all the epitome of beauty

So I closed the suit carrying what I found to be the only solution

One of everything, some silver, some gold, some green

All of it against the wall to lean

Until I venture here once more

How to Tell Sad Stories: The Fault in Our Stars


For everyone who wrote this movie off as another predicable sob story, you are sadly mistaken, no pun intended. The director and author are both able to craft a sad story in such a way where you learn so much about yourself in the process of watching this remarkable film.
Hazel Grace Lancaster and Augustus Waters are the two most refreshing characters I have had the pleasure to see transform the screen in a long time. The Fault in Our Stars holds nothing back, but is poignant, funny, heart warming and heartbreaking all at the same time. This film has the ability to make you believe in your dreams not because the two main characters have cancer, but how they go about handling it is inspiring, brave, and therefore miraculous. The story takes us into the life of Hazel someone who’s life is changed by Augustus not simply because he is a boy who charms her and won’t stay away despite her requests. It is changed because of the kind of human being Gus is. The diction in this movie is impeccable. Funny and witty, the monologues cause us to pause and consider things such as “That’s the thing about pain, it demands to be felt.”
Many scenes make us laugh, some made me cry. The thing is I don’t ever allow myself to cry in the theater. This film did not give me that choice. It caused tears to flow freely down my cheeks and have me openly weeping. The movie does follow the book more closely than some others have in the past so readers won’t be disappointed. When drinking champagne together, the waiter told a story of the creation of the champagne saying “Come quickly, I am tasting the stars.” This movie shows the perseverance of the human spirit and the power of love. Through verbal and non verbal dialogue Gus, Hazel, and Isaac take us with them on their coming of age journey. (I promise this is not the boring obnoxious coming of age filled with symbols, it is a brilliant coming of age story littered with symbols.) It was truly a pleasure to witness the pure joy in the darkness of moments and understand what it means to be human.