What really breaks me

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Watching the Pianist
An inevitable fate escaped
For the composer anyway
Seeing the look on a battered girl’s face
Makes it hard to swallow
Infidelity to your significant other
The act of mass murder, those planes smashing building, flying with deathly force
Breaks my thoughts, how could someone do that
More importantly how can you live with yourself
Some little kid finding out
There is no Santa Claus
Hate Crimes
People who hate themselves
Realizing that the people who
You thought cared
Don’t even know you, not really
When something beautiful or someone
Shatters
When a girl can’t have a first dance
At her wedding with her dad
Because she doesn’t have one
When two people destined for each other
Die one of them dies
When a “friend” stabs me in the back
And wants to be “friends”
When people don’t have the guts to apologize
When a baby cries because it was born addicted
No choice in the matter
Or when a baby is aborted
When someone torments animals
When the media showcases something
But the real meaning is lost
When someone gets away with murder
Disrespecting the elderly
Purposely embarrassing someone or hurting
Their feelings with cruel pranks/jokes
When people are led on
All these things break me
But number one
Is how you glance at me
How you joke around with me Hug me and advise me
Inside everything is so completely traumatized from what you’ve done
The hardest part is learning to be lonely so everyone thinks your fine
Really metaphorically your soul is drunk with the wine WE were to share
That’s what really breaks me, more then a national disaster it’s YOU
You batter my emotions with memories and photos that burn my insides
I can’t feel happiness anymore it’s all cold, a mass of the broken pieces glued together
Expertly by me but with a tiny ice pick you
With that smile, messy hair- break it all over again…

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Current Mood: Stop this train

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Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take the speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t
But, honestly, won’t someone stop this train?

-stop this train by John Mayer

I think in lyrics and these lyrics are how I’m feeling. You could stay it’s my current mood. Or it has been since the campaign for president began. Now, day after day the decisions Trump makes continue to be self-destructive but also destructive to America. I don’t know why but it feels like the walls are closing in on me when I watch the news or catch a story on my phone. Do you know that my best workout was when Trump was speaking at a town hall and I was so appalled by the lies and rude words he was spewing so I continued going on the treadmill until the talk was over. My dad was next to me, and I remember walking out of that gym that night thinking, there’s no way that after this type of behavior and performance he would be the republican candidate? Alas, worse than just that happened. So as I think in song, my current mood is Stop this Train by John Mayer because honestly, won’t someone stop this train?

-M