Lasts and firsts: Cheers to the new year

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Last cup of smooth coffee

Last stunning sunrise

Last calming shower

Last page of my book

Last embrace from my dad

Last football game

Last sip of hard cider

Can I stop the flow of time?

Everything is now so divine

But there are so many firsts waiting for me in 2018

First cup of coffee

First sip of champagne

First hug from my family

Maybe first and last first kiss

First snowfall

First call from my grandma

First time on the ice

First time at the library

Cheers to all the calm and frenzy in this year

And a toast to all the firsts

In the next year

To health, happiness, and bliss

To all the things I have and the things I miss

To another year of wonderful firsts

I send my love and wishes and more

Because there is so much wonder 2018 has in store

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A True Fairy Tale, One I witnessed with my own eyes

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I’m been writing this poem a very, long time you see
I’ve been thinking and searching and smiling with glee as I’ve
I’m been writing this poem of their love’s history
Antonina and Levi a truly beautiful and wondrous pair
A couple whose love story is simply beyond compare
Once they were together
I saw a change in my twin
I saw her look at his photo
And helplessly grin
So the day he came I wondered what to say
To the man my twin might marry someday
The day I met Levi I’ll never forget
Because I was going to my first Bears game and I was hyper, you bet
Levi was calm and quiet
Sometimes he can be a riot but this time
He listened kindly to my joyous chatter
To him my words, my joy did matter
Bears vs. patriots in the snow
But I knew no matter what I would go
I could tell the moment we met
That he was the one she’d never forget
It was on that day that I knew
That they’d be together
No matter the weather
No matter the situation
They would smile in jubilation
See the day I met him
He accepted me in who I am
Then I felt it bam
In my heart I started to see
How we’d all one day be a family
The more he came the more I knew
That Antonina and Levi’s Love was powerful, beautiful, and true
Levi was immediately like a brother
There was really no other
Better to talk books, football, whatever I wanted
He listened and joked with me
I felt so incredibly happy
We would go out as a group of five and he was up for anything
The kindness in his heart was a truly wonderful thing
He fit in our family like a glove
This lovely gift from God above
I met his parents lovely people too
My love for my new brother grew
Then on the day of the rehearsal the first thing Jordan said to me
Was welcome to the family
I felt so welcomed I felt so blessed
I felt in my heart that I could rest
I noticed something then and there
The way they care about each other
The way they stare in each other’s eyes
The way they prepare
Things for each other
So people might say oh brother
Not me
I say what a blessing before for the world to see
In both their parents they have examples of beautiful love
Bozena and Jan
Jay and Ashly
Two couples with beautiful love stories of their own
Their example of love divine
Showed Antonina and Levi
A love that’s sublime
Now as your first Christmas as man and wife
I know you’ll love each other the rest of your life
And so much longer
And so much stronger
Because together the two of you
Show how powerful love is
When it’s true
Nothing will ever come between you
Because you have a bond
Of each other you are more than fond
On this Christmas night I say
I saw a miracle of love on your wedding day
I say good luck but you don’t need it
Because you two are remarkable as can be
Now that I’ve written your love history
I think I know
That your love for one another will always continue to grow
So Levi since her heart you did win
Please take good care of my twin

Christmas spirit

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Christmas time is here

That special time of year

Where I’m filled with glee and cheer

Because loved ones are near

I loved our Christmas Eve dinner with the whole family

This feeling I cannot explain filled the inside of me

Christmas spirit

You could hear it in our singing

You could see it in our faces

You could even feel it in our warm embraces

Cheers to another year

Of Christmas cheer

While everyone sleeps

Not a word or peep

I silently think

I take a sip of my drink

Christmas music fills my ears

Christmas spirit fills my heart

To all my loved ones: may we never be apart

The feeling of Christmas deep inside my heart

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In my mind I just couldn’t conceive

How quickly it became Christmas Eve

The cookies have been baked

There’s more cooking still to do

There’s many more people to say I love you

To my entire family

A deep love strong as can be

This time of year

Causes me to reflect on all I hold dear

I love the carols, cookies, and vivid colors that surround me

I love all the joy so I wrap it carefully

In rich crimson, deep green, and glittering gold

Because the spirit of Christmas has made me daring, made me bold

Everyone still asleep

In their beds and dreaming deep

But I’m up because I’m filled with delight

That’s it’s the night before

Jesus being born away in a manger

What could be stranger than my thoughts

They bring to the fact that I’m alone and not in love

I want to be but it won’t come

So I hum a Christmas tune

I’ve been humming since late June

In hopes that next year

The man I love will be right here

But until then my family and friends

Give me unconditional love that truly is boundless and never ends

So on this eve

I do believe

I’m very blessed

To get off my chest

The way I feel

Because it’s so surreal

The feeling of Christmas deep inside my heart

The meaning of the season…

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Christmas time is practically here

I feel it in the love of people that are dear

Are dear to me because I know

After Christmas they have to go

Go back home but before I burst

I know that this home was their first

The music playing so beautifully

Michael Buble’s voice serenading me

The food so delicious, the aroma fills the air

I want to just stop and stare

I want to capture this one perfect moment

And not let it slip

Slowly I’m losing my grip

The tears begin to drip

Because there is so much love

When we are all together

For the worse or for the better

We stand as united as one

Our love as a family will overcome

Any obstacle, any test

So this Christmas season I’ll do my best

To remember that the reason for the season is closeness to God above

But the meaning of the season is your heart being filled with love

Distance: The Finale

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It’s been over 11 years
Despite my greatest fears
That she’s gone so far away
At home she cannot stay
I miss her laughter and her grin
And to my great chagrin
I miss just walks with her through the neighborhood
She’s moved out and happy as can be
And me?
I’m so happy she found true love and joy
She is not a toy
To be passed around
To just toss to the ground
She’s a human being and through thick and thin
She truly loves me
She’s my sister, my twin
And together we will always win
So although distance separates us we are never really apart
Because we are bond together by the love in our heart

Distance Part 2

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It’s hard when she away from me
With a great deal of difficulty
I carry on each passing night
Blue with sadness terror fright
Sometimes I hear her laughing down the hall
I chase the sound until I run into a wall
Everything reminds me of our insides jokes
Clothing movies and tedious pokes
To make me smile when it won’t do
Instead my eyes carry a dark hue
I need her here and she can’t be near
I whimper in silence
I wallow in pain
But she’s someone else
Somewhere else
Despite my every prayer
I stare at an empty door
Cold, empty, as much as I can bear
I stare
Superimpose her image on every flitting object
But it does not a lick of good
To see only pictures, and as cherished as memories
They may be
I need her real body soon
Real person in flesh and blood
I’ll meet her with a rhyme
One thing I’ll do differently,
I won’t let her go anywhere THIS TIME.