Will you ever see me?


One day when you see me

When you really see me

Against the glow of the night

When I hold you so very tight

Until I hope with all my might

That one day you’ll see me

One day I’ll wear my hair down

One day I wear a beautiful gown

We’ll go all around town

And one day you’ll see me

If only I were enough now

In my jeans and soft gray sweater

And jokes and laughs and delight

We’d stay up cracking up all night

If we could spend an afternoon together

Despite the frigid cold weather

Then we could finally be together

And then you’ll see me

You’ll see my joy, my hope, my fears, my flaws, my strength, and hope you’ll want me still

You’ll want me for who I am

The way I want you, need you, dream about you

But until then

I lay awake

Deep breaths I take

Thinking of your jokes, your laugh

Your adorable dog and hard working character

Your blonde hair and beautiful eyes

I’ve seen you all this time

And made ever effort I could

To be open and vulnerable to you

So I wonder and question what will be

The biggest question in my heart:

Will you ever see me?

Shocked in shock


Gentle winds

Gentle shivers erupt

As you kiss my cheek

Walking into your car is a blur

All I can think of

Is the electricity I felt

Shocked in shock

Star crossed lovers


There is no harm in star crossed lovers

Their story must be told

There is no harm in them

Because they are so bold

Their bravery and courage

And fierce hope instead

Of fear and despair

They minds haven’t been read

Because they trust each other

You cannot never tear them apart

Because these star crossed lovers

Well they share one heart

As real as the stars


When will the time come

When will it be true

That I’ve found the one

Who won’t make me blue

Who will take my dreams

And give them flight

Who I will cling to as they hold me tight

When I’m at library

When I’m in church

When I’m at a theater

When I’m on a walk

When I’m hiking

When will it be?

When will I meet you and you meet me?

Will it be tomorrow or today

How will this play out?

I don’t know

But I know you’re out there

In the rain and snow

When I find you

Off to the sunset

We’ll go

Then I’ll have a true muse

Only then once I actually can touch you

When I’ll never have too much of you


I’ll write about you

The great poems with a purpose now

With a subject matter not invented

With one that is real as the stars

Beautiful to you


Talk about whatever

You think I’m really clever

We talk some more

We explore each other in that way

Hoping we could be more someday

You tell me that I’m beautiful then I gasp

And I try desperately to grasp

The depth of your kindness

You make my heart soar

You mean so much more

Then I ever thought you would

It went from something to everything really fast

I hope what we have will last

Until that is worked out at least I know

To you I am beautiful

Madness. Then Calm.


I understand the writers madness
It spirals within my very bones
A tall towering tumbling
My mental state is troubling
I’m only human
I push against The force that wants to destroy me
I use the power of pen
Mightier than the sword
I know it is.
Writer’s madness
It is a part of my heart
It can be joyous
I have experienced the flutter of ecstasy
Right now though, it is most unpleasant
Torture chambers bind my mind
I hack away at the ropes, they regrow
I will continue to battle,
no matter how dark the sky
How deep the water
How cold the room
I will be victorious in finding peace
Even if hell precedes it
I will find my beautiful piece of Heaven
Right here on Earth
And I will tie myself
With a magical ribbon
I will be bound to a better life
Lavender ribbon of calm

Ode to coffee


From the moment you touch my lips

It’s a special thing; I can barely hold my grip

You feel the air with joy and love

You’re truly a gift from God above

When I pour you into my cup

I quietly and quickly drink you up

I cannot get enough of you

Oh coffee, how I love thee

When I wake up

Or when I’m stressed

You will always know me best

A cup of you will pass my test

And no matter my qualm

After I ingest you I am calm

Your silky brown color

Your wondrous smell

Not a fiber of my being do you repel

It’s heaven when I walk into a room

That’s filled to the brim with your sweet perfume

A cup of coffee is all I need

To be happy, yes indeed

I have special moments with my mom and you

When we drink you together, our fun is simple but true

So no matter how bad my day

A coffee in my hand and it won’t stay that way

Ode to coffee

You’re so simple but so complex

I don’t know what will happen next

My future is one great mystery

But with coffee, I know the best thing will be

My love and I sipping a nice cup of it

That is something that hasn’t happened yet

Coffee lead the way

Although life is about changing, coffee please never go too far away

Forever in my heart, please stay