Crazy about being crazy in love 

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Maddening 
Heart pounding 

Sweat inducing 

But oh so passionate 

Dream scenarios in my head

Dreaming about hugs, kisses, and cuddling under the stars 

Of all the crazy stupid love 

Happy joyous reckless hope

That one day days are so wonderful 

And nights are a kiss goodnight

Nights are not lonely 

More than someone to fill a void

A passionate affair

My Mr. right 

That’s me

Crazy about being crazy in love 

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Gone Girl, Lost soul

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The moment the first sentences were uttered by Nick about crackling his wife’s skull to read her thoughts, I realized this was going to be different than I had that and that thrilled me. This statement would seem to automatically imply his guilt in her disappearance. The brilliance of this movie is the pace and the suspense is carefully calculated and sprinkled carefully throughout the film. The scenes of their love that twist into a hatred so strong she actually attempts to frame her own husband of her murder, shows the real crazy inside the very fiber of her being.

This movie will draw out emotions in you that you didn’t know you had for Nick’s apathy towards the situation that turns to anger when he is found as having a mistress and being framed. The forgotten victim in this movie is Margo, Nick’s twin sister who at one point gets arrested as an accessory to murder. I truly cannot explain but would strong encourage the watching of the movie and the read of the book. The differences are small, but the movie pulses blood through your brain in a way I have never experienced. At one point when Neil Patrick Harris who plays Desi appears to help Amy with her plot (he is unaware) the film gets even more dark than I thought it could ever be. Read the book maybe, but definitely go out to see Gone Girl. Just don’t go alone if dark movies aren’t your usual cup of tea. They aren’t mine so I went with a friend and that was helpful because there was a scene that caused me to literally jump out of my seat.

If you want to know how it all ends, and trust me you do, go see Gone Girl. It’s an examination of the human mind that may make you question your faith in humanity. It’s up to you to restore it.

Black and White: Nina’s Dark Dream World of Desperation and Dance

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I cannot dance to save my life, but I love watching dance and have never seen Swan Lake. You have probably seen hundreds of films, plays, and musicals, but you haven’t experienced anything until you have witnessed Black Swan. Natalie Portman is gripping from start to end. The film is captivating and takes us into Nina’s (Portman’s) world of Dance which we are quick to enter and her mentally ill mind. Masterfully directed by Darren Aronofsky, many angles of this film are ones you consider once the movie is over. It is like a song in your mind and parts of it splash on to you like a hurricane. You cannot look away no matter how disturbing because you want to be side by side with every minute of action and at times you feel that energy. I watched the end in disbelief, knowing it was worth it and that “I felt it, it was perfect.” She wanted it so badly. To become the lead ballerina and the Choice is Swan Lake. We meet Beth, the older dancer who has a horrendous accident the night that Nina has an important dinner presenting her as swan queen to the public. Her teacher is a womanizer and his lexicon is suggestive but Nina wants the Swan Queen role. Enter Mila Kunias. Lily who has emotions “she’s not faking it” says the teacher, Tom. They are told the story of the black Swan and Nina is chosen to the anger and jealous of other dancers. It is assumed that Nina is having liaisons with Tom. His nefarious behavior or kissing her and groping her is despicable, a man we love to hate. She is this look of fear that never really goes away. She has no role model.

I was taken aback by her mother’s disturbing influence. Her mother has Nina under her watchful eye and it is alarming to see that while Nina is self- mutilating, her mother just is drugged out in the other room. The little music box plays and sends our protagonist into dreams with the dark, devilish prince that causes her to awake in fright. The male teacher in charge of the company suggests that Nina touch herself, but hurting herself is something Nina begins to fancy. The clothes are extravagant and the film has amazing graceful ballet. It explores a dark side. Nina is falling apart and I can’t help but want to put myself through the screen and hug her. It appears that it is too late for that as The White Swan Nina plays masterfully. It is the black Swan that troubles her and fogs her mind. There are many aspects of this film that you don’t know if they actually occurred or not. Her having sexual intercourse with Lily after lily puts a drug in her drink to let her “roll”. Also, when her mom takes the door knob away and tells Nina she called and said Nina wasn’t well, Nina gets out of the apartment or rather storms out. It is opening night. Here she has a scene with Lily that I will never forget.

Have you ever wanted something so badly that you would cross the line for reaching it? This dream she has had for so long is her moment! No one can swoop up and steal her precious time that she slaved away practicing and bleeding in the name of ballet. Perhaps Lily, the new girl, embodies the qualities of the black swan. This film teaches and shows us the dark element of dance. I would never want to dance or have dreams like Nina. It takes you far past the edge into this world of obsession and madness that Nina cannot turn away from. What I love about this film is that there isn’t time and money and talk about the weather as things that bother you or make you stop and question things. It’s organic in the way it chooses to alarm and electrify your very being. Amid her woes you see that see loves dancing and it is everything to her. This lavish, decadent life she receives a glimpse of but on the downward spiral I want to scream but know it is too late. It’s over before you can help or see anyone who can. Truly it sways and rocks you into a troubled slumber of your own. Not for the weak of heart, I recommend Black Swan to anyone who has ever had a challenge in their life and given up or grown obsessed with that very challenge.