Love at First Sight

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One cool day in October I messaged him
He replied swiftly the following day
We connected in a profound way
That to this day I can’t seem to find again
It was when we shared our stories of happiness, loss, and pain
There were all sorts of thoughts pouring through the edges of my brain
Deep inside the layers my soul collided
With the words he’d spoken
With deep tenderness provided
He would always end with a sweet goodnight
And I have never slept better, pure delight
In November we agreed to meet
He texted, “I’m outside” and my heart began to beat
It began to thud around in my chest so fast
I stepped out into the street,
Doing my best
To keep myself together
As he stepped out to greet me
My vision was flooded with everything in the entire world at that moment that mattered –
Him
His beautiful eyes, His crooked smile, his hair tousled in the wind
Suddenly, I felt what could only be described
As the most incredible sensation of joy, vigor, hope, and awe
I walked towards him and we embraced
And that feeling kept pulsing through me
Filling me with this out of control emotion I hadn’t experienced yet
And although we never met before
I knew that very cold November night
That what had occurred to me
Was the utter beauty of love at first sight

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Maddening Intensity of Calm and Ease

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I leave the car slowly and
I see you, it’s you… and I feel butterflies
I feel a sense of anticipation.
We embrace and we walk towards the restaurant
I feel each step as I walk next to you
It feels natural, like we’ve walked together before
Except we haven’t
We smile and walk up to the counter
Breathe in…
You ask, Do you know what you want?
I say Yes, I always get the same thing.
You glance the menu and we order.
Breathe out…
We wait a long time for our food.
But I feel it.
Standing there.
Glancing at you.
I feel stillness.
I feel calm.
I feel peace.
I feel traquail next to you.
I breathe nice and even breaths. I smile. I laugh.
We talk through the evening and it’s so nice.
I feel calm sipping tea and I listen to you.
I appreciate your casual attire.
It calms me.
I dressed up too much…
It feels effortless being with you.
I don’t feel maddening intensity except I do.
I feel maddening intensity of joy.
Maddening intensity of calm and ease.
Of our first meeting.

Sweet lullabies of love

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I pull on my Valentine’s Day sweater with care

The one with different colored lipstick kisses that makes me smile

I paint my nails a deep red

I send out wishes to all my family

I eat my oatmeal

Love my body with goodness

That’s my Valentine’s Day

I am grateful that I have so much love in my life

And one day soon

I will swoon

Over him

And my Valentine’s Day

Will include a romantic dinner

Roses or lilies

And most importantly

Someone that loves me with their entire heart

We will cuddle we will kiss

The won’t be a hint that I miss

We will romance

We will dance

We will appreciate the little things

We will hear our hearts sing

Sweet lullabies of love

Is it human nature to desire more?

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Silent early Sunday mornings

I sit all alone and I ponder

Sipping warm coffee

My mind begins to wonder

I’m drawn back to my dream

All though I only recall fragments

I know in it your face did gleam

I wonder about football

I wonder about war

I think about the game and who will score

I think about devastation of fire and ice destroying our nation

I would if I can take it anymore

My mind racing with these thoughts

I hope it slows but it will not

I ponder death and immortality

I ponder what it will be like when I have a family

What will my husband be like

Will he be the man of my dreams

Will he be kind and understanding

And loving and respectful

And a good father?

Will my children grow up happy and healthy?

Will I be a good mother?

Think about a garden

Think about a place

Where I’m not crying with tears burning up my face

About movies and romance

About whether or not I have a chance

Of a happy ending of my own

I wonder about God

About a job

About an apartment

About life after college

And when it will go my way

I should be grateful with what I have today

But is it human nature to desire something greater

To think about what you might want later

I am happy but I’m not content

I feel like I’ve spent

Too much time

And I want to spend the present and future

In a way that I’ll gain

All the dreams created by my sometimes awesome brain

Lasts and firsts: Cheers to the new year

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Last cup of smooth coffee

Last stunning sunrise

Last calming shower

Last page of my book

Last embrace from my dad

Last football game

Last sip of hard cider

Can I stop the flow of time?

Everything is now so divine

But there are so many firsts waiting for me in 2018

First cup of coffee

First sip of champagne

First hug from my family

Maybe first and last first kiss

First snowfall

First call from my grandma

First time on the ice

First time at the library

Cheers to all the calm and frenzy in this year

And a toast to all the firsts

In the next year

To health, happiness, and bliss

To all the things I have and the things I miss

To another year of wonderful firsts

I send my love and wishes and more

Because there is so much wonder 2018 has in store

A True Fairy Tale, One I witnessed with my own eyes

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I’m been writing this poem a very, long time you see
I’ve been thinking and searching and smiling with glee as I’ve
I’m been writing this poem of their love’s history
Antonina and Levi a truly beautiful and wondrous pair
A couple whose love story is simply beyond compare
Once they were together
I saw a change in my twin
I saw her look at his photo
And helplessly grin
So the day he came I wondered what to say
To the man my twin might marry someday
The day I met Levi I’ll never forget
Because I was going to my first Bears game and I was hyper, you bet
Levi was calm and quiet
Sometimes he can be a riot but this time
He listened kindly to my joyous chatter
To him my words, my joy did matter
Bears vs. patriots in the snow
But I knew no matter what I would go
I could tell the moment we met
That he was the one she’d never forget
It was on that day that I knew
That they’d be together
No matter the weather
No matter the situation
They would smile in jubilation
See the day I met him
He accepted me in who I am
Then I felt it bam
In my heart I started to see
How we’d all one day be a family
The more he came the more I knew
That Antonina and Levi’s Love was powerful, beautiful, and true
Levi was immediately like a brother
There was really no other
Better to talk books, football, whatever I wanted
He listened and joked with me
I felt so incredibly happy
We would go out as a group of five and he was up for anything
The kindness in his heart was a truly wonderful thing
He fit in our family like a glove
This lovely gift from God above
I met his parents lovely people too
My love for my new brother grew
Then on the day of the rehearsal the first thing Jordan said to me
Was welcome to the family
I felt so welcomed I felt so blessed
I felt in my heart that I could rest
I noticed something then and there
The way they care about each other
The way they stare in each other’s eyes
The way they prepare
Things for each other
So people might say oh brother
Not me
I say what a blessing before for the world to see
In both their parents they have examples of beautiful love
Bozena and Jan
Jay and Ashly
Two couples with beautiful love stories of their own
Their example of love divine
Showed Antonina and Levi
A love that’s sublime
Now as your first Christmas as man and wife
I know you’ll love each other the rest of your life
And so much longer
And so much stronger
Because together the two of you
Show how powerful love is
When it’s true
Nothing will ever come between you
Because you have a bond
Of each other you are more than fond
On this Christmas night I say
I saw a miracle of love on your wedding day
I say good luck but you don’t need it
Because you two are remarkable as can be
Now that I’ve written your love history
I think I know
That your love for one another will always continue to grow
So Levi since her heart you did win
Please take good care of my twin

Fractured wrist, forehead kiss: Love

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Fractured wrist

Forehead kissed

Carried to safety

We didn’t drive far (to the ER)

You pushed me away from a swerving car

It’s just the strength of who you are

You risked you life to save mine

If you hadn’t done that I wouldn’t be fine

I’d be a goner, a spirit, a ghost

What I like the most

Is that’s how we met

It’s a moment in Time I will never forget