Don’t you dare love me, Don’t you dare help me, but hold me as I do

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Beneath the sheets
Beneath the layers
Beneath the content nature
Of me
Beneath the conversation
Beneath my calm demeanor
Of me
Is someone searching
Is someone swimming
Is someone diving
For meaning
Behind the smile
Behind the laughter
Behind the banter
Behind the neat, tidy, polite, loving me
Lies chaos
Lies flames and fires
Lies fear
Lies regret
I’m a jumble of pieces
That equate to my soul
I want to figure it out myself
Don’t you dare try
Don’t you dare help
I need to desperately do this for myself
Don’t you dare care about me
Don’t you dare love me
I don’t want to take you
Shake you
Break you
It’s too late though
I know you do
Your stare
Your glare
Your grin
You soak me in
Much to my chagrin
You don’t just allow me
You want my jumble of pieces
A part of your whole
Don’t you dare help me
But you can hold me as I do

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Sweet lullabies of love

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I pull on my Valentine’s Day sweater with care

The one with different colored lipstick kisses that makes me smile

I paint my nails a deep red

I send out wishes to all my family

I eat my oatmeal

Love my body with goodness

That’s my Valentine’s Day

I am grateful that I have so much love in my life

And one day soon

I will swoon

Over him

And my Valentine’s Day

Will include a romantic dinner

Roses or lilies

And most importantly

Someone that loves me with their entire heart

We will cuddle we will kiss

The won’t be a hint that I miss

We will romance

We will dance

We will appreciate the little things

We will hear our hearts sing

Sweet lullabies of love

The only witnesses of our first kiss, the glitter makes me shiver

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Meandering thoughts converge

Across the glistening snow

Painted across my mind

The glitter makes me shiver

It’s such beauty to behold

Fresh snow makes everything seem possible

As I’m spinning between constellations and dreams

I see you, across the fresh snow

You are the epitome of my dreams

You walk slowly toward me

I want to run to you

But I’m frozen in place

Like the ice stinging my face

Then as quickly as you came

You are gone

I wasn’t fast enough this time

I curse myself for the failure

But hope overwhelms me and

Glancing over once again

You are there again

You must have disappeared beyond the shadows

This time I blast towards you

I won’t let you slip away

As tired thoughts melt

We hold each other at last

The haunting glow of the snow

The shadows that surround us

The lines of clouds are the only

Witnesses of our first kiss

Risk

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simply soaking it all in
slowly sensing much
timidly tension builds
begging only for your touch
dancing divinly unaware
that all the things you two may share
must come to a bitter end
you’ve known it all along my friend
that between the love that runs through your veins
is something else constricts, constrains
sometimes you jump and assume you’ll be caught
when it isn’t at all like that, is it not?

Naked trees embrace the shiver

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Naked trees stand and slightly then aggressively shiver

Bare branches despair and shake in the unforgiving winds

Nature is not embarrassed

Nature embraces the shiver up its spine

The sun gazes at the world as I walk through it

I carefully follow the path

Across the neighborhood

Short but sweet my travels

As the snow melts away

Bringing with it a new day

I wonder about how close spring is

As I smell the ground warming up and witness

The tiny birds emerging

Nature’s sign of the times

Desire‚Äôs got a reckless hold on me

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Dripping of desire

Desire of so much more

Desire of my own life

Desire of a great job

Desire of true love and lust

Desire of perspiring until I lose the weight

Desire of the 10k race

Desire off all my goals

One day at a time

Desire

Dripping desire

Of reckless hope

Reckless hold on me

Desire’s got a reckless hold on me