The Calm Shadows of the Morning

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When I awake, I find great joy in the calm shadows of the morning
I shower quickly, swiftly after I take my medicine
I feel calmer now, lightly somehow
I listen to music: to classical, to BTS, to Michael Bublé, to Ruelle,
To Linkin Park, to Andrea Bocelli, to Piano Guys, to Eminem, to Kasey Musgraves,
To Lewis Capaldi, to Taylor Swift, to Shawn Mendes, to Enrique Iglesias,
To Jacob Lee, to Dashboard Confessional, to Hinder, to Echosmith
To Ben Platt, To Panic! At the Disco and many, many more
Every morning my mind has different musical numbers in store
After I listen to things songs
Then my mind can get along
With the feelings I feel
And the things I think
With the water I sip
And the coffee I drink
After I have appreciated all these songs
Holding back the urge to sing along
I throw on a coat and I go
Braving the weather –
Cold, Hot, Ice, Snow…
Whatever it is away I go
On my journey for fresh air
My body, mind and soul say thank you once I return
After each day of this, one thing I learn
Self-care and being self-aware is what I need
And I have it down to a science indeed =)

Because when I’m near you, it’s a Fairytale

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Holding your hand as the piano plays

Has my world in a daze

We then walk through the world together

Braving the chilly, windy weather

We talking openly about how we feel

Slowly but surely it feels real

At the end of the night I would be remiss

If I do not mention our passionate kiss

Then you drove away and I stood, headed inside

But everything I could ever need to heal my heart and love again

Only you can provide

Your smile melts me heart

My brain is torn apart with thought

I don’t mind feeling like I’m in a dream

Because when I’m near you, it’s a fairytale

I’m going to bottle up every moment we spend together

And when I have a storm to weather

I know in my heart of hearts

You are there for me

Two Times Goodnight

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Before my dreams take flight
I put on my comfy pajamas and say goodnight
Then I ponder over my journal
Fragments in my mind
Behind all my emotions are
Fluttering eyes shutting, too tired to compose
I sigh
I come out again
Sip some water,
And then say goodnight again
It’s my evening ritual
To ensure that I say it
That they know I love them
That I know they are okay
That I know everyone has everything they need
That I see them all smile and rejoice that sleep is coming
That I know my mind can drift into slumber
Not once, But two times goodnight

My Poetic Defense

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My heart is full of deep, profound emotions
So immense
So intense
All I can do is furiously type on this keyboard
All I can do is remember the feeling of your hand in mind
All I can do is wait for the next time I see you
You told me things
You told me “I miss you”
You told me “You mean the world to me”
You told me “I choose you”
These things are causing my heart to implode
And then explode
Never as any man been so kind to me
Treated me with so much respect and dignity
So instead of professing all of my feelings to you
My actions are the words on this page
My emotions gauge this –
I feel that I am falling so hard I can barely stand
So here we are in my written recompense
For being afraid to tell you everything
This is my way of announcing you mean everything to me:
My poetic defense

With the Option to not Merely Exist, but to Live

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Every Day
Is a special occasion
To put on your best dress
Your best shirt
Your best shoes
Forget the blues
You choose
Every day
Only occurs once
Race through the field
Lay in them
Take in the sweet air
For once today is over
You can’t have it back
You must sweat, suffer, and curl up into a ball
Or
You must throw that all out
With the Option to not merely exist, but to live

Love’s First Kiss

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I fell so hard
Caught completely off guard
The harder I fell
The deeper the spell

I am tumbling
My fingers are fumbling
Grasping at the air
As I stare
Unaware of what happens next

When we made cookies
You were so near to me
Your mischievous smile I could see
My heart then filled with glee

The more time we spend together
My feelings grow
And now you know
What happens going forward
Is yet to be seen
And I hope that I am not remiss
To hope for what could be Love’s first kiss